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(Tuesday, May 29, 2007-)
+11:15 PM]*

# (can't think of a title)

Tuesday

Today was pretty interesting. Woke up after a crazy chat session with the three in one, actually jz two, but yeah, it was crazy. Was chatting with a few other ppl too and eventually gave up because 2am (apart from being a track from Altered Frequency's album) sounded more like "you're asleep" and "you're not supposed to be making sense... what?.. precisely" so i slept. And woke up this morning at around 9 plus 10. Slacked around, surfed blogs and what not, yeah, actually what what not ar?

Who cares, i got myself out of bed (which takes a lot of effort when u haven't been working or 2 weeks plus...) and went for lunch. I think i stopped by TJ first to get my shoebag, talked with the few ex-councillors in the room and then went opposite. Got a rather ok lunch, and then as i was abt to leave for Beach Rd, Jaren's sms came.

Then went over to under LT 2, ~~helped~~ distracted sek's/pras's PW group with their soapy slippery GPP and then finally started to make our way to lunch. Why was I at lunch again? Don't know. Where were we going to eat? Don't know. We had many funny suggestions.
-->Daikin (go figure)
-->IKEA
-->McDonald's
-->LJS
But we settled on Pizza Hut cuz of their tempting student offer. But Jeryl still wanted his porridge. So he went and bought and brought it into the Hut.

Then we had many funny conversations and almost persuaded Diantahhhhhh not to buy lasagne and the person who took our order had some math problems. When the food came, Jaren's balls didn't seem to appear. But they ate anyway. Had a little surprise with Adele and Valarie coming to the Hut as well, but they were doing PW there... so sad... And then Shi Yun came and i told her they were inside before she could call them (on the phone lar). Then Chinese Drama Girl (CDG) also came. Sorry I dun know ur name. Sek thinks CDG is from AHS. But then again, everyone is from AHS lar in TJ. But u wouldn't recognise them from their EZLINK CARDS!! It was so funny when Yumei started laughing at the pics at the counter. Even the staff were so unprofessional and laughed with her. Jaren was "stretched", Diantha looked like nurse. After the meal, went off... haha, Yumei, u cannot read from this point on ok?

[-------------------------No Yumei allowed-------------------------]

We went to City Hall first cuz i wanted to get my ticket from nearby Beach Road. Diantahhhhh wanted doughnuts but the queue was insane, so we got nothing from there. Haha. So we decided to head on to Orchard to get more stuff with Jeryl Kari to join us there. When we were there, they were at Eunos. So, you guessed it, we moved on! Haha, but really, all the best to Kari and Jeryl for Band EXCO!

Stopped for Ah Pek Ice Cream, which Diantahhhhh and i got hte same while Joannie got some green thingy. But pro of the day goes to Joannie who ate it the tidiest. I get the the fastest eater award as usual, and wanted more.

Okay, now when we finally reached our destination, Kinokuniya was having a stock check. For ONLY today. It had to be JUST today.
-Business will resume on 30th May NO THANK YOU!-

Oh well, we headed off to level 3 and shopped ard. Ok, we started by sitting down while getting Diantahhhhh's Rubik's then we got Yumei her stuff. And had loads of fun looking ard all the weird stuff. Realised i haven't played board games or Uno in a long time. Oh, when Jeryl Kari arrived, I could only see Jeryl. Heee!

After we bought e stuff, got it wrapped, we went down to Happy House, or so i thought. There was this rather embarrasing moment but since this is my blog, i shall not suan myself. Haha! If u know about it, u can blog abt it.

Left for tuition, came home, and blogged.

Ok, some observations today.

Blogskins are created to irritate me

I missed 2 14s today.

Justea-Lemon+Green tea is cough mixture in disguise

Im losing my appetite

Life is a very deep word.
Life is meant to be explored and slowly understood.
If we fully understand life, it's not worth living anymore.
But we still strive to figure life out all our days.
Why?

Labels: Ah pek ice cream, Diantahhhhh, EzLink cards, Jaren, Jeryl, Joanne, Karilynn, Orchard, Pizza Hut, Pras, Raffles, Rubik's, Sek, Yumei

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(Monday, May 28, 2007-)
+5:37 PM]*

# Draw Me Closer

I foresee that this is going to be a long post. But somehow, these past ew days have been very memorable and meaingful. Yup, to everyone who was a part of it, txs for being around. I know it might seem nothing much to you guys, but Im happy!

Just something I was pondering over. Shuming mentioned in her blog that she read that different people were having ups and downs of their lives. And for me, I know many people who aren't exactly cruising along in the race of life. Like what Rachael once said in YA, many of us are already injured athletes. We were running the race, and because of some incident or another, we're kind of by the side now, waiting for first aid. To all those who I know u're "injured" one way or another, I really do hope all the best for you. Will be praying for you.

Then while I was doing laundry, this thought came to me (yes, i do my own laundry thank you). God has emotions. His heart feels for us, and me, who can't possibly love as much as he does, feels hurt for the people i know around me, how does God feel? He knows every hurt everyone is going through, He feels so much more. And then, how does He feel happy for others that are having great times in their lives. I guess God must have hyper-threading emotion processor.

But really, God must feel really sad for so many of us I wonder if He ever just wants to force His way into our lives and help us out. God, you must really be having a tough time. Especially with so many people hurting and injured or getting injured right now.
Zsa, Yumei, Cass, Pei Zhi, Aaron, Claire, Fang Xian, Bing Sheng
Saturday

Okay, this happened after a long long break. I slept for about 15 hours! Haha! So much for surviving 2 days with 4 hours of sleep. Lol! Yup, woke up for music prac and arrived late... Darn. We practised two "new" songs cuz one was so old it became new for me. And also Consuming Fire. Dunno where the cons(h)uming joke came from though. Haha. Practise was good although we used very funny jargons or actions to describe what was lacking. Musicians out there might understand.

Poor Winnie was at the sound board with a leaking nose and had to bear with all of us. Our prac went fine and we sounded quite good at the end when we were coming together already. Although I think my right ear is getting more and more deaf everytime. Maybe the bass should shift to the left of the drums to give me even deafness. Haha!

Then after music prac, i was still sleepy so i went to the youth room to rest. Pei Ting, Alex, Rachel, Xiu Yu and .. oh no... i dunno how to spell her name. Shall not attempt. Hehe! People were there, yup and we were all basically talking crap and Rachel was supposedly studying. Winnie and I were trying to sleep while Fang Xian was being high. Shouldn't have gave her the chocolate.

Soon enough it was the awesome engine-room prayer meeting with Isaac. It was really meaningful prayer as we really prayed for the Holy Spirit to come down for our service this time. Yup, it was the Holy Spirit night as some people called it. And people were getting really serious and I guess thats what really made it more meaningful. Yeah, we prayed our hearts and tears out (even without my voice after soccer cheering) with screams and shouts and stomps and jumping and kneeling. Yup, an awesome prayer meeting! Radical for Jesus. Chosen to Serve!

Then it was service time and we were all excited. Atmosphere was good, but i guess it just wasn't time yet for the Holy Spirit to be poured out. Like the 120 in the upper room, they didn't know it was gonna be Pentecost when the Promise would come, neither did we and tonight wasn't that night, but we're still gonna be hungry but ironically, its for the Holy Spirit to devour us! Hehe =)

Service was great and after service, the chairs were a little off. Like people lining up at wrong lines, the chairs were re-organizing themselves. Haha. Soon we got it all sorted out and then headed down for dinner! Yay! How often do you get free dinner ryte? Txs Aunty Ang!! Fried rice! Yay. Wanted to take 12 home but a tragic incident happened. 12 came. On time. Come on.. what gives... 12, u're always late!! And the day im enjoying my fried rice, u come on time.. So i took a nice walk home.

Came home, chatted, blog surfed, slept.

Sunday

Oh yeah, this the eventful day. It started of simple enough with church in the morning. EVeryone was early and on time! Cool eh? Pre-service prayer was really different in the sense that Ps Khoon Mei asked us to get real with God. Yes, we've been getting ready for Pentecost Sunday, but instead of "hyping" us up and get excited/anticipatory of something great, we were asked to get real with God. Tell Him, if we didn't feel like life is going our way. Tell Him if we're angry when He didn't come through for us. Tell Him we're far away and not ready for Pentecost Sunday. Nothing loud. Nothing flashy. Just getting real. It's one of those moments u realise that church is so real. That we don't have to "be" a Christian. We just have to come as we are. Failures, disappointments, shortcomings, troubles. No need to be all cheery and jumping around when we're not happy with God on the inside. And just lay it all out for Him. And He's a God that will never turn us away. I mean, that's so.. unfair! How can He be so nice to us when all we do throughout the week is ignore Him and then blame Him on Sunday. Yet, His love never fails. He never fails to let us lay our burdens at His cross. Simply put -Amazing Love-

Sunday service was arguably the best whole year! Ps Jonathan gave an awesome message abt the cripple at the gate called Beautiful. The empowerment of the Holy Spirit. How we need it so much. How we always seem to not be able to do the things we ought to be doing, and how we need to be filled once again! So who's NOT looking forward to church camp?!!

In case u're interested, its at Port Dickson, Tiara Beach Resort from 11th to 15th June. I'll be there. He'll be there. Will you?

Ok, thats all for camp promo, but really, this camp is going to kickstart something awesome in Emmanuel, we all feel it!! I mean, how can it not when we serve the Living God?!

So cool with the church service for that day, altar call was good, although the ending gives rise to the question of church security. Yup, Hosea brought that up. Hehe. Then we had cell meeting which lasted forever but came to no conclusion. I guess 40 year old virgin is not something you watch after such an awesome Sunday service?

So as Marcus "prophesied", we went down to Beer Garden to eat lunch, which I jz tagged along for fun. Then headed back to church for Habitudes seminar to substitute Gabriel who was at Global Day of Prayer practice!

Ok, let's see what I think about the YA comm
-They're a wacky bunch of ppl!!
-->shoulder to shoulder
-->unscrewing heads is a process
-->Shrek Team
-->Rayvin sabo-ing Roland
-->Buying 20 Nuggets after arriving late
-->It is no longer an Iceberg
-They're a very diverse group of people
-->Stealing each others' ideas
-->Quoting each other to avoid getting into trouble
-They're very open
-->yeah, they openly talk about their cell groups and how things have come along

Yup, it was a fun, eye-opening, wacky, no-holds-barred session with them and The Cloud and Aunty Aye Lan =)

Most likely i might be a Habitudes fascilitator but then again, since only me and FX going, might be no need for that. But i can foresee that the next 6 weeks is going to involve a lot of real, tangible goal setting =) Yup Christianity is getting more and more real =)

Okay, once the whole thing was over, it was soon time for the peak of the day, actually, Sunday service was already the peak, but this is a different sort of peak. Think Mt Everest and North Pole. Ok, so this peak's name is Global Day of Prayer, truncated into GDOP cuz Singapore will not allow you to have any words with 3 syllables or more, what more, 4 words! Oh the crime!

Yes, GDOP was starting at 6pm to many people's unknowing shock. Not their fault cuz the organizers didn't include the Youth Praise n Worship session in the bulletin. But it was super funny! Let me give u a description of what CFC from Emmanuel did. We waited, in the sun instead of under the bus stop for the bus. Reason? NONE! Haha!

Then we arrived about 5.35, and we walked to our seats in the East section. After about 10 minutes, Ps Mark had a call and we were called to go down. I was like.. huh? Go where? This stadium is already so big and way too empty for anything to be starting, why we need to move?So we all moved like obedient sheep. Haha, walked and walked, no idea where we were going. Gate 1, oh ok, lets go. On the other side of Gate 1 - THE MAIN STAGE!

We were like about 20 plus of us standing right in the middle of the National Stadium having praise and worship! With barely 500 people in the whole stadium, there was CFC youths jumping and praising God in front of everyone with Ps Jeremy Seaward and Rachael leading us! Woo hoo!! A really surreal experience. Of course it was rather embarrassing also cuz i told Louisa we had seats, and then the next moment, we were right smack in the middle of the whole GDOP set up! Soon other youths joined us. Yup, it was really really cool! Such an experience. Imagine in heaven, that it'll be multiplied a million fold! Whee!!

Yeah, after praise and worship (youth) the Salvation Army Brass Band started playing and we headed back to... erm.. somewhere. Our seats were already taken. Roland wanted to sit on the main stage cuz there were chairs there. Haha! So we wandered around and while wandering, I bumped into Louisa and her bro! Haha, so much for having to try to find each other.

So we walked like obedient sheep until we reached a place to sit. Then the whole GDOP started. It was cool. Except the songs were those from the Days of Elijah. Haha, yes, it was that bad ok! It was like... all hymns or whatever it was people sang before that. The newest song was Here I Am To Worship (without Call Upon The Name of the Lord) and Louisa bro and I were waiting for that song cuz we were sure of how to sing it! Haha! And to Louisa, yup, our church is Charismatic so GDOP is so not the usual way our prayer meetings are. Surprise, culture shock, I don't know. But i guess that's why the churches are quite "divided" in that sense. Cuz God doesn't limit the way we praise/worhsip/seek Him and so there are so many ways of doing it that there has to be different denominations to cater to Christians from all walks of life.

Yup, i initially said i wouldn't go for another GDOP cuz it wasn't my cup of tea, but after thinking it through, i realised its people like me who are unconsciously dividing the church. So GDOP 2008, Kenneth will be there. I might be 1 in 50000 but I know it matters =) Yeah, and not to mention i was sooo hungry cuz i fasted lunch that day. Yup. CFC took forever to leave and finally i decided to eat dinner with Matthew and Gabriel. Went to Old Airport Road, the one which Simin brought me once for awesome pasta, but it moved down the road. The food was horrible and Gabriel and I were craving McDonald's. Him-20 piece nuggets. Me-McSpicy Meal. AARRRGGGHHHH.. But txs to shuming for keeping me company while i was dying of hunger! Haha. And that mushroom is a mutant lar! Eat two dinners! Haha! You ate more dinners than i did meals! Haha!

Yup, she was kind enough to listen to me rambling about how i wanted mcdonalds and was super hungry. Hehe. And then the worst thing happened and i bet the mushroom was rolling all over the room laughing at me.

I wanted to take 10 home, so Matthew and I walked out. Then Matthew said i should take from Side A (i dunno how else to describe the sides of the road) and i said it should be Side B. while walking, i missed 2 10s on side A. But i thought it was OK, since Side B is the correct one. Then we waited on Side B. And Matthew's bus came, but it showed that Side B was the wrong side. But i said it is ok cuz bus 30 is weird. Always opposite side from normal busses like 12.

Miss count for bus 10 - 2

Then we asked the people there, and they said Side A was actually correct, so i crossed over. And then as i was crossing, i missed another 10

Miss count - 3

Waited at Side A, and it was the correct side. For Matthew... He took his bus after missing like 2 for no reason. He just didn't stop the bus. Lol. So i waited patiently back on Side A and after a while, the two people i asked for directions told me that they saw the most recent 10 and Side B was actually the correct side and they made a mistake earlier. I was like ok, i crossed back to Side B

Miss count - 4

While waiting, i was whining to Shuming. Haha, and she didn't know if she should be sad or laugh. *bites* Okay, shall not be mean to a defenceless mushroom. So on Side B now. (i bet its so confusing u dun care which side im on anymore ryte?) Bus 10 came. I asked the driver, he said the other side. Those ppl cheated me. TWICE!! Arrghh.. but i wasn't too pissed. Cuz i had the time. And it was their mistake. How did i know? THEY WERE ON THE FREAKING WRONG SIDE TOO!! LOL!!! Their 31 finally came and they had to cross over. Lol.

Miss count - 5!!

Yup, waited on Side A which is the correct side and finally took my 10. Stopped whining and got home! Yay. Interesting Sunday.!!

Labels: Bus 10, Church Camp, Global Day of Prayer, Louisa, National Stadium, Pentecost Sunday, Ps Jonathan, Shuming

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(Friday, May 25, 2007-)
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# Memories

Hey ppl. Nothing much to blog about in particular. Wanna say txs again to the people who've made my life memorable.

The council. The thirtieth. It was nice hanging out at Justin's although i will say the freezing cold wasn't too nice to bear. It was fun playing mahjong although DOA was distracting (because it didn't have sound... what were u thinking??) Txs Justin for letting us stay there and use ur kitchen to cook instant noodles. Stephanie now knows how to use the microwave oven to cook instant noodles. Yay! But really, 30th, txs for letting me hang out with u guys although im like super old and retired. Retrenched even. And some of the 31st that i know too. Txs for the hospitality. I do appreciate it cuz its really out of ur hearts that u do it and not out of compulsion. At least that's how i feel. Yup, txs for the frequent times i crashed scroom too =)

The RTs, in particular The Tropics citizens. It was nice talking to you JoJo before u leave. Yeah, its all so sudden isn't it. Well, i admit i was rather sudden too when i came. But it was nice, the squeals, i dunno how u do it. The JoJo attitude, the piano playing, the handphone-Hillsong-listening-sessions. Just doing random stuff and teaching me quite a bit about band too! Modulation and transpose. I know the difference now! Also the cutting pipecleaners from the start. "You can really cut!" Haha, comment of the year! Yup, txs for all the nonsense times we shared, the lunches together, pre-orders and the occasional sardine puffs! Eugene, txs for always welcoming me and also teaching me how to gem. Hehe. And also Rubik's and lending me ur credit card and treating me quite a few cabs and lunches. Yup, even money matters quite a lot =) But really thanks for just being a friend during my stay in TJ =) Yup, really meaningful and all the best too!

Today was meaningful in the sense that i saw my first Shakespearean (how do u spell that?) play, and it was OH MY GOSH BRILLIANT!!!!!! Yes TJC Drama Club gets my standing ovation for a play well played. A show showcased in excellence. It was a moment in life. A memory. Well, let me run through this billiant performance from my point of view.

Firstly, i paid $26 to see this production. 10 for tix, 16 for the cab fare to get there in time. Shouvik, txs SO SO MUCH for saving me that front row seat. Yes, that's how i could see u Zhiyuan and Zsa^2 =)

The opening was nice! With the whole introduction of characters. Then there was the Mariam and Actors who were really the funny people of the whole production. And then we progressed into Fairyland with some evil guy and his little minion. Ok, not little literally but yeah, it got funny from there when the love potion thing started to get screwed up.

I liked/loved the entrance of the FAIRIES!! (not to mention the accompanying FIRE!! *winks at zhiyuan*) they were so well hidden!! And the whole play really took off from there, with the set coming to life.

Donkey was funny, really funny, Lysander and Demetrius were really convincing, and funny at times. Loved the fight scene. Was funny how Zsa was sat upon too! Haha!

Yes, anymore details u should have wathced the whole production!!

But i stuck around after the production to congratulate Zsa but she never came down. Congratulated the rest on an amazing show. Went up and the rest i'll jz let those who know, know.

Went home. Went to Justin's. Did the extra Innovation Day work till about 3.30am before sleeping. Couldn't really sleep cuz it was freezing. So wore socks but it was still cold. Put my towel but it was still cold. Did i mention it was freezing? Slept at about 4 plus but couldn;t relaly sleep cuz it was freezing. Yeah, freezing! Haha, ok ok, yes it was freezing. I mean, cold, very cold like freezing? So i woke up lots and only got to sleep like one plus hours before 6am came.

Went to school for Inno Day. We got pwned/owned. The other departments were so prepared lar, with videos, prototypes, experiments, demonstrations. We were like.. blabbering about blogs and sms voting... OWNED.... But the reception was nice and got a msg from JoJo that she was in school too! Haha. Then i stoned ard.. dun quite recalled what i did. Oh yeah, went to Mind's Cafe to meet Eugene and his class! Played amny funny games, like Jungle Speed, Banana Snap, Bucket-something. And then ate there (mistake) and was almost late for drama. No Zsa, I was there while the "wedding reception" was still going on ya? So i caught the WHOLE production!! Yayayayay!! It was so worth it. i know i said already, but yeah!!

Okay, post production, decided to overnight in school. Haha! Did a few stupid things. Used shampoo instead of soap, got the lights shut off while bathing, walked to scroom when the choc was on the table. But it was a nice experience. Although Aaron was acting a little weird into the night (or early morning) and zhiyuan wasn't exactly thinking right. Lie down and watch the movie *looks at ceiling and laughs*

Yup, had fun staying over. Played bridge, sorry Hui Min didn't get to bridge with you. And Big2 and watched a bit of some movie which was quite lame... Then talked quite a bit. Sorry for keeping u awake.

Finally decided to sleep at about 4am. Zhiyuan had to wake up at 5.15 for the overnight wheelchair marathon. But her alarm mysteriously didn't ring and i woke up at abt 5. Then abt 5.15 Di Hui came and immediately she woke up. Haha, cool eh? Walked to the sports com, then listened tothe briefing and went back to the scroom to rest. Didn't get much though cuz councillors started arriving for schooL. Yup, second day of sports carn. Yes i didn't bathe that morning but did help out later with the wheelchairs. Played a little badminton but the wind was screwy. Haha

Then basically bummed ard the whole day. Played the gladiator thing with Aaron and won. Hehe. Watched the funniest match ever between Cadence and Evelyn!! Basically did nothing till abt 1 plus, went home to bathe then came back for soccer cheering. Oh yes, before that i was promoting the soccer match too.
The PE tutors were drinking beer!
Finally the bus came, but not the people. Rather disappointed but oh well, 5 of us took the second bus. Cool eh, a whole bus for 5 ppl. But on the way zhiyuan and swee liang looked like they were dead. Zhiyuan was a little hard to wake, and swee liang was a little slow. Haha. We got in and cheered.

I cheered like crazy but it was honestly a disappointing performance by TJ and RJ deserved to win. Yeah, sort of lost my voice cheering for them. Then took an MRT ride back to TJ.

Met JoJo and Eugene! Haha, so nice. The final meeting of the Tropics before we part our ways. Went a little high in there but it was all cool. Stopped by the guitar prep rooms and JoJo gave her stuff and then i got seats with Eugene cuz shums asked us to go early to get good seats. Then went opposite a while then soon the concert started.

Let's jz say i did a lot of screaming and shouting for my students. And also, there was one "GO STAGE CREW" that was Mr Eugene. Stuck ard after the concert. Gave a little something to my students. Then left for home. Shuming looked dead tired. Haha.

Yup, point to note. In thesse two days, i slept only less than 4 hours, and I didn't feel tired or sleepy. Some crazy HIGH!!

OK, Next post shall be on church and the weekend! Yeah!!

Labels: 30th SC, Cadence, Eugene, Evelyn, Guitar Concert, JoJo, Mind's Cafe, RTs, soccer, Sports Carninval, Swee Liang, Wheelchair, Zhiyuan, Zsa^2

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(Tuesday, May 22, 2007-)
+11:32 PM]*

# Sprung... a leak

Tuesday

Historical day. Let's get the basics out of the way. Got up, went for interview, went to church, went to school, had dinner, tuition, came home to blog about it. Here we go.

Okay, the highlight of the day, the SPRING SG interview. If any of you from Spring Singapore is reading this - HI! Hope u had a nice day at work =)

Woke up at 7.40 after Jean convinced me waking at 7am for an 11am interview is madness. Haha. So i woke up later, took a shower, re-ironed my pants, did my QT and then prepared to leave. It was abt 9am. Reached the bus stop at 9.10, and 14 was already here. Yay. No need to wait.

Got up, sat down, listen to All of the Above till about hostel there, then started reading up my Spring SG notes. Yes ppl, i made notes. I know that Philip Yeo is the Chairman while Mr Loh Khum Yean is the CEO and his deputy is Mr Png Cheong Boon. I found out it has 5 branches and 4 strategic thrusts. But do you care? I guess not. Haha. But still, the stuff they do are quite cool. ETDF, CCI, MDP, BrandPact. Yup, without Spring, its like, building a house without machinery. U can do it, but it'll be much easier with their help.

Yeah, lets just say i was super early for the interview. Yup, met Maria on level 20, she took my certs, gave me back my Orange folder, and i sat down. There wa this guy opposite me. Just smiled, but he looked super tense. Didn't get to speak to him and he went for the interview.

Actually, there was an air of disappointment when ireached level 20, i instantly knew it wasn't the final round and there would still be a need for Round 4. But oh well. Read Enterprise Today while waiting. Prayed. And finally my turn came.

The HR Exec was a very nice lady, then she gave me a quick briefing on what was gonna happen in the room, and it was Mr Tan from Corporate Development and a lady from Enterprise Capabilities i think. The interview was rather smooth although i didn't throw all my knowledge of Spring at them.Yeah, should have done that. Sighs...

Then the usual ending question came.. Do you have any questions for us?

I asked about the departments in Spring, if i get to choose... bla bla bla.. then i asked about accomodation. And here's when the leak sprung itself.

HR Exec : We will certainly provide the accomodation for our scholars

Me : Oh, so you'll be paying for my hall fees if i accept NUS

HR Exec : Well, we will definitely fund our scholars' accomodation because they need it when they are overseas

Me : Oh, okay, so firefly is ONLY giving out overseas scholarships

HR Exec : Yes..... *and here i stop listening and start thinking.. oh crap.. i am screwed*

Yup. found out that firefly only wants to give out overseas scholarships. And i don;t have an overseas place to be sent to. So yeah, God, if You want me to take up a plain ASEAN in NUS, i will i guess. But if u give me the Spring Scholarship, i know its You cuz it will take a miracle to get me both a scholarship and a place overseas to read Engineering.

Yup. That's how the thing went. A quick 20 minute interview. Then bussed back to home. Slept. Sorry Jayne, my hp was going crazy today. JoJo smsed me and i finally got 8 msgs straight away after restarting my phone. Helped Jayne out and towards the end, she had to leave for driving. All the best!! Finished it up and went home.

*Cue College Anthem - Jazz Version (which is my ringtone btw)*

Yumei called and i get to go and get the cable. She was doing make up PE. Reached school and saw her and Sek. Sek was doing the most cool make up PE I've ever heard. Shoot 100 balls. And Sek being the *cute* haha Sek she is chose 100 3 point shots. I reached at 57. And stayed around till 100. It was super funny lar with Yumei helping Sek with the balls. Yumei is also a B.. I.. M... B... She's a Bimbo.. B.. I... m...?... She's a Bimbo! Hahaha! *knocks her own head with the ball* Haha! Twice! Haha! So funny!! And then Sek also laughed, then can't concentrate and shot a few ass-balls (according to Yumei) Haha! Ok, she meant air-balls. Then after about an hour (they were ther for an hour already) we left while Sek still wanted to stick around shooting more balls. So cool ryte, 100 shots for make up PE.

Then as i left, saw the PE teachers opposite. Anyone want to guess what they were doing. I doubt any of u can guess it right. Seriously, even I didn't believe it.

Ate my dinner, on the way out, met Aprine, Amanda and Ying Huan, topped up EZLink and then went for tuition. Then came home. Yup. Hi. Im still on the school laptop. I bet that's illegal when u were retrenched like more than a week ago? I guess TJ jz rocks!

Shout outs
Zhiyuan, Trinity, Ryan, Cadence, Shawn - All the best starting tomorrow. It's a learning journey. Remember that, you make mistakes and you grow stronger!
Zhiyuan - Congrats on ur scholarship(S!) U crazy siao girl!! Take care tmr too. And of Zsa too
Julie - Jia you! Be a nice usher k? U rock!
Zsa Zsa - I don't really know what I can do for you except pray that God sends a special guardian angel to watch over you, your pain killers and your heart. Care lots for you..
Jean - Congrats on NUS Business!!! Awesomely cool!
Lay Sian and Co - Sorry about the confusion
TJCians of 05/06 - A level certs and SGC are ready for collection

Labels: Jayne, Sek, SPRING SG, Yumei

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(Sunday, May 20, 2007-)
+10:04 PM]*

# Spring...

Interview coming up. I want this. Yup. Prayed about it, and i want it. I need it.

Tuesday 11am somewhere along Jalan Bukit Merah. Not too sure how to get there, but i'll find out. I guess i've sort of ruled out NTU in my mind. But I don't want to have to go through uni on another ASEAN scholarship. It will be sad.

Spring Singapore. Read up about you. I guess it's something i can do for quite a few years. But of course i need to know what u really want and deliver it this Tuesday.

Okay, a little recap of the weekend. Friday was cool. Went for Choir Concert. It was nice, especially the musical this year. Met some of the choir people again. And Ms Tham vaguely remembers me. Yay! Haha. Carian was dancing in front of my side of teh audience but i don't think she saw me. Valarie was singing on my side too, didn't notice me either, but then again, she was supposed to be lookign at Ms Tham anyway. Had difficulty spotting Shi Yun but i saw her during the musical. light green scarf =)

The concert was good. Ushering was very bad. Emcees were a little off, not quite the right atmosphere. And the programme booklet was.... erm... smelly. Yes it was, go smell. But overall it was a nice concert.

Gave a little (yes, it was quite little i know...) something to carian, shi yun and valarie (whose name was spelt valerie in the proramme booklet) and then took off to eat dinner with eugene. Newton circus. First time, overpriced, but at least the Hokkien mee was nice =) I don't eat prawns though. Sad eh? But txs eugene for dinner =)

Then took 48 home and slept. Next day had College Day.

Met up with many people. Txs for the camera in the morning Yumei! Took some pictures, talked a bit. Then sat down, went to audi, didn't sit down. Went walking ard with Ben Tham. Then had to sit down when it was about to start.

The college was rather pretty, but its jz a facade. I found out that Dr Vivian Balakrishnan is a young man. Haha, that changes quite a bit of my perception, and his speech was not bad. I guess its a pre-requisite to be a politician? Got stephy to take pics for me. Txs Steph! I know it must have been difficult.

Got my awards, for SC (plaque), 4As (CAC Award), Overall Top Student (Some-guy's-name trophy) and gave the valediction. Cadence and Zhiyuan got awards too. The council's a brainy one this year!

Ok the valediction.... Let's see, i have heard many different things abt it. I was nervous. So stupid lar.. But i sort of settled in after a while. There were those who were laughing (yes, i won't embarrass u here) and those who were trying hard not to laugh. But i tried. I am proud of myself, and i think my valediction wasn't as boring as last years. Yay =)

Yes, i loved college day! Yes, call me proud but its something that im proud of myself. Of course i know its not jz me who could have done it alone, but i think its something i will remember for my whole life =)

Talked to many people, parents (some of which i don't know), tutors, juniors, friends, students. Then went for class outing. All 10 of us. 9 most of the time. Ate at Surf n Turf. The food there is not bad. And had a nice "discount" when they didn't add Mei Lien's meal to the bill. But the owner so nice say no need to pay. Haha. Of course they did spill water on grace and teik kheng, so they did kind of owe it to us? Yup, talked a lot. Ni Ying wants to buy laptop. (Ma) Lay Sian either wants to be a teacher or an accountant. Pei Fen, haha, she's definitley not committing suicide at 25 anymore. Mei Lien is gonna go UK. The guys... are in army. Period.

Then walked ard, went for YA.

I was ridiculously dressed from college day for YA, so they got me to be the "late usher" which is the guy who gives out this letter to those who were late to remind them to come early for service next week cuz we're locking the doors at 7.30pm sharp. Yup, honour God with our time. So it was not too nice a job, but it was alright. Although the speakers weren't. Just the left one i think. Winnie and Addy had a hard time with the sound board this time.

Yup, other than that, service was ok, ended on time and we ate chicken rice for dinner and i went home.

Shall skip Sunday. For those of you who are wondering, take a long thought of how (our cell in particular is doing) and then maybe u'd understand the way i reacted.

Yup... bye people..

Labels: 29th College Day, Cadence, Carian, Choir Concert, Eugene, Grace, Lay Sian, Mei Lien, Ni Ying, Pei Fen, Shi Yun, SPRING SG, Valarie, Yumei, Zhiyuan

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# When You Are Done

Hello once again.

I realise that Im back to doing nothing. Absolutely nothing. I have this friday, i mean tmr to look forward to and this saturday.

But before that, i jz wanna blog abt nothing in particular.

What makes life meaningful.
Let's take a look at some of the things i've come across so far.

Lets start with the most obvious, or rather famous/infamous

1. Relationships
Firstly, this is in no way condemning anyone cuz i would be guilty of doing that to myself. But yeah, its like, quite a pressure or rather, the norm for people to be looking for someone to be attached to. Everyone thinks that when u're single, u're looking for someone. Also, the singles will also be looking for someone. Maybe its seen as a cure for loneliness. Im sure we all know nobody does it for the status or solely out of peer pressure. But we all long for someone who understands us. Someone who cares. Someone who is there for us. A person to share experiences with. And i guess that's make life a little more meaningful in its own sweet way. It makes ~~you~~ one (haha) feel appreciated, cared for. I've also heard and seen how it has helped many people along the way. How people find their strength to carry on. And i admit it is normal for us. Even for me to have a special someone. A person who means so much. Yup, it does have its way of making life more meaningful.

But now, let me start on what i've seen. Relationships can hurt, real bad. Is it really worth it? I would say yes, but obviously at the right time. The amount of hurt it can cause, is perhaps proportional to the square of intimacy. Firstly, its not easy getting over a person. Secondly, it will also leave a scar/wound that will be hurting/a reminder to the next time i/you/one falls in love. I guess it doesn't really make life more meaningful after all. It does make it more "lively" through the SMSes or gifts or time spent together, but it doesn't really equate to more meaning once its gone. Yes, once its gone, if its there till death, i would not deny the meaning it adds to life.

2. Money
Cliched. Everyone knows money can't buy happiness. It can't buy time. But it can buy that plane trip of a beautiful holiday. It can but that computer that makes life so much more efficient. Let's not discredit money too quickly. It makes life a little easier to bear, not only cuz of that cab u can take home when u're dead tired, but more for the security u can have. Like now, being unemployed sucks cuz i know my money is jz draining away. All i've saved up for the past 5 (or slightly less) months being drained away like how i drain my food away (i know i eat fast). So having money to burn does make life a little more meaningful in the sense that each day is lived knowing what tmr holds (or the fact that tmr will hold itself together). It will also buy u memories. How? The idealist will tell you memories can be made out of anything. But i say money does have its role to play. One that starts off most memories. That movie, that dinner, that holiday, that outing, that game. It all cost something. And having the money to spend those times really does help. It also buys time. How? Apart from the simple (and rather life stressing) fact that u can do things faster with better equipment (think of zapping/online banking/shopping/computer), it buys time with people. A treat will always come in handy. So does the simple fact that u're willing to spend time (and money) with someone. It buys a stronger relationship with someone cuz of the time that u are able to spend together. Unless of course u spend time with people over nothing. Which i know is totally possible. Ask councillors. Haha. But life can get more meaningful with the memories money can buy. Of course shopaholics agree hands down (but their hands are too busy picking stuff off that rack already)

3. Friends
The obvious, so im not gonna argue how they make life more meaningful. Let's see how they don't. Relating to point 1, they can jz as much, perhaps to a lesser degree, hurt and make life as painful as it shoudn't be. They also, like everything, won't last forever. At least not for me. I know they don't. This is a rather personal point of view, but yeah, friends don't last forever. Over time, and distance, friends can grow apart. And then, the forgotten serve as a grim signpost that life has lost its meaning. I know many of u treasure ur friends u have now, and i strongly encourage u to do so, but how much more meaningful is life with them really? There are times when u have to actually sacrifice what u want for them. Even to the extreme where life if lived for the others. Where conformity becomes a routine. Where one cannot imagine not having anyone to spend a whole week with. How much meaning is there to life, when they are all u define life to be.

Ok, i know this sounds like a really emo post. But i am fine. (and the world has come to the point where when one says he/she is fine, he has to add this line) Really, i really am ok. And i know this isn't my best form of argumentation cuz i realised halfway through, some parts are really jz ramblings, but oh well, tis jz a blog, not a GP assignment. Please do add your thoughts either in a tag or a comment. Much appreciated! Of course, u can start turning it into a friend-dedication post. Haha =)

But I would want to conclude that in life, what means the most, is really All of the Above. Go figure.

Labels: Meaningful

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# Without Work

Monday

So its finally come. Im unemployed. Retrenched. Saded.

Yup. But i still made my way back to TJ like Fe drawn to a magnet. Ok, more like i miss the people there!!

Yup, was back in school, but i woke up like super late cuz i was going crazy on MSN with Yumei. Haha. And first thing i did in school was to pass Yumei the College Anthem. "JAZZ" version. Haha, i hughly doubt it cuz every possible genre is in this version!

Yup, then bummed ard the staffroom. packed up some of my stuff. Got my stuff for NTU ASEAN zapped. Then i walked home cuz i forgot to take some certs. But i was being an idiot cuz i didn't bring anything from my table home. LAME... So now i still have a lot of stuff to bring back. They include
-leather shoes
-blue octopus =)
-03's tee =)
-21's boxes =)
-many cards/notes/papers
-certs
-dictionary....
-pillow (dun bother asking)
-random stuff like water bottle, pencil case...

Ok, i shall bring some home today.

Slacked in the staffroom quite a lot. Then got my stuff certified and went for college day rehearsal. Also left the 4X4 Rubik's with Yingen who passed it to Zhiyuan. They (including Julie, i dunno why.. haha) were making Invest souvenirs. Haha, i think i looks nice, but too tiring to make. Hehe. Lazy.!

Went for a REALLY USELESS college day rehearsal. Yup. USELESS till i have NOTHING to blog about. And even more sad was that i was late to meet Jean for Thai food!

Met Fer n Co. in the way out. Feel sad for them. Beta HC... Met Claire n Co too. Claire helped me mail my shcolarship stuff. Yay. But she also told me the wrong bus to take to Suntec. Boo...

Had to make a switch to 14/196. Did it at hostel's bus stop. Too bad didn't see anyone there. Took 196, met Jean and walked into Shaw Tower. Which looks like a hidden shopping centre! Then looked for Aman who was hiding in the toilet! Haha! Met her at Subway and then Xinyi (who Jean went and caught) too as we made our way to the Thai Restaurant. Dunno the name though. Haha

Let's see what we ordered.
-2 Plates Thai Kuey Teow
-1 Plate Thai Noodles
-1 Plate Thai fried rice
-1 Bowl of Tom Yam Soup
-1 Green Curry
-1 Plate of Mango fried chicken
-1 Plate of Kang Kung
-1 complimentary Mango salad

All this for only $8 per person. Ok, $32 in total. Not bad ryte? But it rocks even more cuz the food actually tastes really GOOD!! Yup, and then we started off eating normally. Until we started to get a little full and started talking. Then we were sprouting more nonsense than there was food on the table. Haha!

Ok, we talked a lot, i mean a lot! of crap. Haha!! And we were apparently there for quite a while cuz the shop uncle had to ask us if we had any more orders cuz they were gonna stop taking orders. So .... it didn't matter and we talked even more. Haha!!

Ok, eventually we had to leave and decided to go n get ice cream instead. From Tom's Pallete. I think. Really wierd plavours they have there. They include
-Wasabe lime (suicidal)
-Tau sa piah (erm, eat the real thing better)
-Teh Tarik (same like above)
-Black sesame (its really black, and... yeah that's all its good for)
-Pink guava (refreshing)
-Chocolate banana (oooohh!! nice!!)
-Chocolate (nice!)
-Im sure they had many other random stuff... but i forgotz liaoz

Haha, this shop really quite cool, they let u try all the flavours before u buy,a nd i think the four of us did jz that. Must have looked really bad cuz we tried almost everything, and ended up only buying two small cups. Hhaa. Aman and Jean shared one, and Xinyi and I shared the other. They had Pink Guava + Choc. We had Banana Choc + Choc! Which looked like pure choc! Haha

Then we were laughing so much outside the store, it was quite funny for us to go back and get tissue after leaving the store for abt 20 minutes? Haha. Yes, we laughed quite a bit at the customers after us.

We talked a lot more crap outside and eventually left. Haha... missed 10. It was rather lame. Took 14 instead. Talked even more. What else is there to do on a bus ride ryte? And then went to Jean's to watch Desperate Housewives. Really evil show. And after that Jean was really sleepy and she had work today. I didn't. So i left, walked home to Sennett and slept.

Tuesday

Woke up relatively earlier. Did nothing except rehearse "my" (after it was cut down like a totem pole) speech for college day. Then packedup my place a bit. Ate lunch. Parked. Blogged.

Tuition soon. Not feeling well. Sneezing a lot and feeling too cold in the staffroom. Oh, peeked by to see Invest. I think Zhiyuan saw me, unless she was waving to go for the NY invest. Nice seeing some of my students again. =)

Labels: Amande, Desperate Housewives, Jean, Julie, Parked, Rubik's, Shaw Tower, Thai Food, Xinyi, Yingen, Zhiyuan

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# A Dedication

There is a person that has meant the world to me

When i cried in kindergarten, she would stay by my side.
Everyday when i finished kindergarten, she would cycle me home.
Every morning for my entire secondary school life, she would prepare food for my recess.
Every time i returned home, she was the magic that turned laundry into clean clothes.
Every item i needed, she was the signature on that blank cheque.
Every moment i spent in tears, she spent to consoling.
Every exam i feared, she prayed.
Every thing that went in to my mouth, she prepared.

She taught me to love God
She taught me what it means to have faith
She taught me how to live by faith
She taught me how to speak English (and some Hokkien)
She taught me how to count fast by playing cards
She taught me how to deal with people (although im still learning)
She taught me how to serve others

The fact that im smiling right now, she brought me up well.
The fact that im proud to say i am able to love myself, she loved me, always.
The fact that im gonna spend eternity with God, she was first assured, and she then assured me.
The fact that i know my life is in good hands, she walked by faith.
The fact that i am able to love others, she showed the way.
The fact that i wanna remember her today, it's cuz she's earned it so well, and me undeserving.

Proud to be your son.
That person is you, mom!

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# The Thanks

Heys, im now officially the youngest person to get retrenched in TJ. Haha. Yups, im out of a job, but before i end, there's a lot of shout outs for me to do

03/07 continued....

Txs for the second surprise guys!!! But u guys could have left the cheering for next orientation or something.. and NOT in the canteen with everyone around... and NOT in front of ppl from my batch... But oh well... its the thought that counts ryte?

Wait.. u guys purposely did it anyway... No marks for thoughts either...

Yeah, txs for the Wet ! T-shirt. Except it could have had a better msg on the front, the back rox!! And too bad i can't wear it out cuz it wil get washed away. But TXS!! REALLY!!

06/07

WOO HOO!! Yay!! I get a jersey! And it looks nice, has my name and is comfy to wear, is the right size, has ur class on it! Ok ok, i shall stop here and say txs for the Class Jersey!! *SMILES*

Yup, and it was really great teaching u guys, although for only 2 months, and didn't really get to know all of u guys! But its ok, at least it happened! And it has been fun being ur GP tutor although im still a little uncertain if u guys liked my lessons or the sweets more! Haha!

Really txs for everything!!

21/07

Wow...!! One CARD/ITEM from each of u guys!!!! And, not to mention free lunch. Yeah, getting a free meal is never bad even if u're working!! Txs u guys and Zsa^2 for all the stress u went through. We now know that we must explicitly state that TJ is in Bedok to the ~~noobs~~ at Canadian Pizza. YAY!! I used the strikeout HTML! Txs Yumei and Shums!

And yeah, it's really sweet of every single one of u guys.. I get to keep the box too ryte? It's a really nice box. Trust me, those boxes will be on my table where ever i stay for my uni k? And it's been great getting to know e new ppl in 21 as well as see some of ur essays sounding more GP-ish after ur 1st 3 months.

o6/07

Sorry about the sudden departure guys. It's funny how after im not teaching u guys, i got closer to most of u. Sorry i haven't been ard much, but really, the times in o6 were good. Especially how u guys behaved really nicely for my assessment in Term 1! Haha, and putting up a nice skit and the winning exhibit in term 1. Haha! Can i be proud of that? HEHE!!

Yeah, it was nice knowing u guys and it was sad to part the first time, and the second time isn't much better. But u guys will still remain in my memories when i recall my RT time there. HAHA, makes it sound like so long ago.. But it still sucks that im not working in TJ anymore...

To all my students

I know life in JC isn't as easy as many thought it will be. SYFs, Competitions, Projects, Tutorials, Meetings, they all seem to eat up all ur time. Time to talk with friends, hang out, catch up, sleep, relax, they all seem missing.

But let me tell you what i've learnt. JC is 99% Time Management 1% i dunno what else. Really, u need to plan ur time wisely. Yes, some of u need to study longer than others, it might seem unfair, but nobody said life was going to be fair. But that's not the end. Like the msg i left u guys, trust God for all ur needs. Matthew 6v33. Put God first, and you WILL find the time fore everything else. I did that and it worked. I had Council, LEO, Hostel activities, but i still went for my music practises on Friday nights although it was the prime time to chill out with friends. I locked up saturday evenings for youth service although thats when most ppl study or have fun in hostel. I used Sunday mornings only for going to church. And God repaid me back with enough time for my studies (although i didn't pass every test, nor was i the top scorer for ANY), i survived and am proud to say because of God, I have done well. He gave me all my needs. Even when i needed money. Even when i needed someone to talk to. Friends i could rely on. God really does know what He is doing.

So, here it is, plan ur time wisely, dun put God last on ur agenda and find the spare time for Him. Honour Him by putting His agenda first, and trust me, He will grant you the desires of your heart, be it good friends, time for studies, health, awakeness (is there such a word?) for lectures!, answers for tutorials even. Apart from time for God, set time to do ur tutorials. Maybe after school with friends, or at night set aside 2 hours of ensuring ur homework is done on time. Don't lag behind, the next train isn't going to be easy to catch if u wanna catch up. Really. Try to be on par with ur tutorials (if u can manage on par with lectures, i really salute you!). Dun let a tutorial pass without u understanding it. Ask all ur doubts away. Cuz they are better sounding silly in class than single digits in tests.

Then, with all u have left, put on a positive mindset. Encourage each other. Dun pull each other down by gathering together and everyone whining abt how 'we're all gonna fail' and 'lets fail together'. DO NOT DO THIS. Really, speaking such words will turn such anxiety into reality in your life. If you don't believe me, go ahead, and see if u get any better by complaining and being ur own prophet of doom.

Try this, tell urself, im gonna try my best. Im gonna try to understand this. Im not stupid. Im not the lousiest in the whole of TJ (cuz many of u think you are when u are NOT). Teach ur friends. Encourage each other when tests come around. Dun sit together and say how we're all gonna fail, but instead say we're gonna pass this one. It's jz one more test, i've done my work and if my best is a fail now, let it be. Im not gonna keep on reminding myself that i've failed, but focus on doing ur best again. And doing ur best is not trying every question. It's clarifying all u don't understand before a test. And completing ur tutorials. Yes, u have to actually do them beforehand before u are able to answer in a test.

Ok, enough of being naggy, now it's jz what i wanna share abt what i've learnt over the past 4 mosnths

I love interacting with people. Be it in the class during lessons or outside class, i am so much more attracted to people than a subject. Yes, i do talk a lot abt GP and Physics!! (which totally awesomely rockS!!), but, i still feel that each and every one of u guys (referring to my students or people i've come across) are really special.

I've learnt that i usually see the best in people. Why do i say that? Cuz i really get hurt on the inside when i hear other people talk bad abt my students for whatever reason. I dun see any of u guys as 'problem students' or people with 'bad attitude' in class. But trust me, i've heard many people, students, teachers, friends mention bad things abt some of my students, and i honestly, sincerely do not believe that u guys are like that. Ok, u can say im sucking up to my students or whatever, but it doesn't matter, this is my blog and i will honestly say what i feel. I have nothing to gain now that i'm done teaching them (formally at leaat). I do not feel that some of my students are not trying hard enough. I do not think they are purposely not turning up for CCAs without 'valid' reasons. I do not think that they do not do work because they are lazy. I do not think they are manipulative. I do not think they are incapable.

To those who i've taught, i only wish that u guys can see urselves as the precious gems i see u guys to be. And no opinion of people that don't matter is going to matter about how i feel about u guys. But then again, i might be naive. Not seeing the whole picture. But then again, i dun think i want the whole picture if the one im looking at now beats Picasso.

I've also learnt that politics abound. And i've tried to stay out of as much of it as possible. But this world isn't perfect, life isn't fair. But i trust in a God who works all things out for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His name. So life can be unfair, but it will stil work out for my good if i hold on to God.

I've also learnt that im not very strong in my opinion. Im easily swayed in my decisions. I can set a deadline one day, and be flexible the next. I can say im gonna complete it, but then change my mind and delay it. I've gotta work on this.

I've seen a fuller picture of what JC life is all about. Hearing u guys tell me about what u guys go through helps me recall my own journey and how i felt the same pressure and stress. But u guys have been awesome. Most of you taking everything on like its fine. Or maybe cuz i don't know u guys close enough. But for those i do, thanks for sharing. I know i don't exactly say it out each time, but in a twisted sense, i feel some security knowing that i wasn't the only person who had 'the worst possible life' in JC. Yes, SHIT happens. And when u think u've gotten over it, SHIT happens again. For those who've shared those times with me, although not many, txs. Txs cuz i've learnt that each one of us is NOT alone in life. We all go through 'temptations which is common to man'. No one is problem-free in life. And that fact helps me know that if i made it, and others before me made it, i can makeit again in the future.

Yup, pls don't give up guys. I don't know all the problems u guys are going through. The conflicts. In CCAs. At home. In class. Among friends. I won't know all the struggles, but all i can say is look for people who will encourage and HELP you to move on, and not people who help you dwell in that misery and jz pity you the whole time. What didn't kill u in sec school made u stronger. What hasn't killed u in JC, will make u stronger. But the catch is u must be willing to learn to move on.

As i speak, im telling myself, my time in TJ is over. It's time to MOVE ON. Not to forget you guys, but to not compare every job with the amount of fun and the great times i had in TJ and then whine and complain about how sucky the real world is. Move on.

Yup, final words to my students. Love you guys. Hope my 4 months with you has broken at least some of the indifference in ur world. Hope that you guys honestly have learnt more than jz how to write an essay. But really, lessons for a lifetime.

Miss all of you guys.... LOTS!

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# 03/07

Heys ppl!! Txs so much for the..... GIANT BLUE OCTOPUS!

But im sorry im not gonna be caught with that at the Cathay with another guy carrying such a big head. Looks way too gay. Sorry... But i really do appreciate it! SMILES...!!

Yup, here's a full post dedicated to u guys! Im afraid for the surprise tmr! Haha

Angel
Selina
Farzanah
Charmaine
Carian
Brina
Xuewen
Yi Ling
Sam
Song Hon
Suan Sian
Anantha
Mahadhir
Ying Chao

LOVE U GUYS!!

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# The Countdown

Wednesday

Hmmm.. the day started off slow, with me waking up late. Haha. Which meant i reached school late, but it didn't matter cuz i ponned assembly anyway. Haha. And i had no lessons till 11.40, so it really doesn't matter what time reached. But yeah, last few days of my work now. Should endeavour to make the best of my few days here.

Oh, this is also likely the last post in a long time cuz i'll be returning this wonderful laptop that has served me well (well, well enough that i haven't thrown it down a flight of stairs cuz it is so frustratingly laggy!!!). But yes, it has served me well enough to prepare my lame powerpoint slides, to play Gem TD, to MSN, to BLOG!, to visit ur blog (yes i mean you!), to surf the net randomly, and to get my own lovely iGoogle and Google desktop!

Yup, this is the end of an era. So from now on, this will be version 2.0 of my blog, from a different com. Yeah.

Ok, this is so turning out not to be a Wednesday post. I need to know how to do that strikeout html. Anyone know can tag?

Yes, this is not related to wednesday but rather next next weekend. Aurora XI is coming up, and i dun feel like going alone although i want to support shuming (ferena, so sad u're not gonna be there...) so if anyone wants to go for guitarconcert, pls tag me ya? Oh, on that note, anyone knows how to get to ACS Barker for (:hoyer (stolen from Carian) concert? Reflections VIII i think. Yeah, anyone wanna go pls tag or Carian, Shi Yun, Valarie wil have noone (aka me) to support them.

Ok ok, in general, if anyone wants to go with me (haha, i sound so despo now.. ee..) for any of te remaining concerts, pls tag? Sorry saturday concerts are out, i have YA on saturdays.

Oh ryte, back to

Wednesday

Haha, what happened today. Had my officially most unproductive class of my teaching career. Yes, i did NOTHING for 50 minutes (although Zoe, i hope things are ok). Yup, 06 persuaded me to let them do nothing while they take home the compre. Well, its sort of their problem cuz tonight they will realise they haven done it yet, and they will realise 1 and a half hours is freaking a lot of time, yet insufficient to complete the work. But a reminder: please only use 1.5 hours ya. Be fair.

Ok, now comes the best part. After lessons, it was... LUNCH TIME! My last time eating lunch out with JoJo and Eugene, so we went to our favourite Pizza Hut! Yup, yes it was raining, but that didn't stop 3 determined RTs (who had other motivations as well... hehe...) We waited at the bus stop, only for the rain to get heavier so we cabbed to the interchange. Such a waste of money, but oh well, today is special =) When we reached,the taxi stopped by the side of the road, as we were abt to leave, this car came and stopped RIGHT BESIDE US! like... hello?? we need to get out? So aft a while, the car reversed and re rushed out and stepped into pizza hut.

Oh did, i mentioned we brought TWO Rubik's along. The 3 and the 4 one. We were the center of attraction and one lady even asked us about it. Haha, we were rather bored waiting for the pizzas u see. Oh, without us realising, Eugene ordered TWO LARGE pizzas for the 3 of us... Like.. thats crazy man.. and he even ordered some meatballs, which were nice (=

Then i started to seriously time my 3X3 Rubik's solving time, and my record for yesterday was 1 minute 31 seconds! Yay, but my all time best is still 1 minute 14 seconds! Haha, but Eugene's best is 54 seconds.. so pro... My average is abt 2 minutes, plusminus 15 seconds? And JoJo was trying te 4x4 Revenge cube, and it didn't work out. We need to figure that last bit out. Final TWO corners won't match... eeww...

Anyway the pizzas came and we literally stuffed ourselves. JoJo had a record 4 and a half, i had 5 and eugene 6 and a half (although he claims 7 and a half! haha) Eugene's record is apparently 10 pieces, which is highly believable. And we stoned at the Hut for another hour to digest our food. Of course, concurrently, Staff Conference was going on. OOOPPSS? hehe.

After feeling quite well digested, we walked back to TJ. But before that, while we were eating SPRING SINGAPORE gave me a call! Yaynesses!!! They want to schedule an interview for me! Yay!! Haha!! But the lady herself sounded more unprepared than me. Must be some new secretary or something, she called, and asked for my surname. Like, shouldn't i be asking u? Haha. But who cares, its a round 3 callback!! YAY THANK YOU GOD!!

Things got better, in my email, NTU is asking me to send stuff for ASEAN consideration, Nanyang Sch consideration, as well as C N Yang Scholarship! NUS, please wake up before NTU grabs me with open arms and hugs me close! Haha, sounds gay, but NUS, please send me SOMETHING??? Yeah anyway, i wanna go NUS, but they are being irritating..

In school, i gemmed and lost again to Eugene, his towers all so nice lar... But at least i didn't leak and die. Hehe. Only won special crafter once. 14 leh, how to reach... Then talked a bit with JoJo before Eugene had to leave. He helped me book movie tix for Orang Labah Labah Tiga (thats in Malay) and im gonna watch with Heri tmr (which is today lar) So, yeah, its $16.50 for two ppl, but i guess the ppl are worth it!

Ok, went for cell today. Let's jz say what we need most is FOCUS. Not to talk abt ppl butt, or how fat we are. Haha, really funny, but yeah, unless u were at cell u won't understand the jokes. And guess what, they ordered pizza. Bringing my grand total of slices of pizzas ate in one day to 7!! My record!!

Ok, after cell, we were still arguing abt which way to walk back, and the guys eventually rleneted and walked the girls to their bus stops although we didn;t know what buses we had. Funniest moment is when FX and MY ran across the road and tried to stop bus 30 when they actually thought it was 33. Haha. Second funniest is FX wanting to wait at a deserted bus stop cuz she didn't see that the road was closed. Haha.

Rubik's on my way home until overshot my bus stop. Haha, good thing nobody with me, not so paiseh. Hehe. Reached home, got a little "nagging" to throw rubbish away and to put the clothes rack back after use. I was giving the im-blur look and said ok. Hosea came back today too! Yay. Ok, went online, chatted and slept!

Shout outs!
Trinity - Congrats!
Cass - Hang in there! God can change hearts!
03,06,21 - I'll miss u guys
C2 - All e best for ur test
Yumei - Be strong =)
RTs - I'll miss you guys
TJC - Bye.....

Labels: ASEAN, C N Yang, Carian, Cell Group Meeting, Choir, Ferena, FX, Guitar, MY, NTU, NUS, pizza, Rubik's, Shi Yun, Shuming, SPRING SG, Valarie, Version 2.0, Zoe

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(Tuesday, May 8, 2007-)
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# Break Free

Monday

Guess what, i've been listening to or is it guess what i've been listening to? Either way, it's All of the Above by UNITED! Oh yea. And it rocks! Haha, if any of u have the time to check, i find the e-guitar in Hosanna at 2:37 quite funny. But after a while, it starts to sound cool. Oh, yes, let me tell u my favourite songs from this album (this is so not related to monday, but who cares)

1- Point of Difference - refer previous post
2- Devotion - chorus lyrics rocks!
3- Found - although i initially ALWAYS skipped this song in Mighty to Save, they revamped it so well it is actually much easier to listen to. NOTE : I hate songs where the singer/s do/esn't sound natural at all.. like when they have too "ghostly" voices. Refer to Found in MTS or Lead Me To The Cross from AOTA.
4- Future Decided - bridge rocks! (and yes, playing bridge rocks too, but not as much as this!)
5- Saviour King - JoJo, i admit the build up for Still is STILL (pun intended) the nicest, but this when they go into chorus for e 4th time, i love the vocals!
6- Selah tracks, especially the one after Devotion, Draw Me Closer (i think) which has quite meaningful lyrics as well

Ok cool, enough of publicity for the album, which totally rocks, oh yeah, enough. Back to..

Monday

Oh, lemme see.. what happened here... Or rather... what didn't happen.. Carian ar... Ok shall not blame her lar, my fault for not bringing back the GP Resource Package. So 03 had to do an impromtu lesson on advertising. Yes, 06, the whole lesson was NOT planned, but i knew what it was about at least ryte?

Continues and finished my THE (yes, its there for a reason my students..) Mass Media intro and even had to take 06 out of 133 because i felt it was so stuffy and they were like.. falling asleep. So we had Alfresco GP with everyone on the ledge outside the art room window except the nine (thinks of the coffins... hmm.. ee...) Of course the stared during the period change must have been funny, but at least they were awake. I think... Were you?

Anyways, had lesson with 21 where i did the current affairs quiz which was also screed up. Wanted to zap for everyone but some teacher had astack of like 500 papers to zap so i tried to print it. Then some other teacher was printing 37 pages... Sian!! So i finally did my final current affairs quiz. And it was too easy.. darn..

After that, i ran out of time giving back essays that i had to hold some of them back. And talked. Then went to the sports com like i always do on mondays, and talked. A lot! Haha, pretend to want to mark essay summore. Hehe. Had a nice chat with Zsa^2 abt many random stuffs. Then she finally had to catch her drama plane. And i still think u have a yellow/PINK wallet. Haha!

Then talked to Shuming too! Had so much to talk abt! Hostel seems more scandalous than ever!!!! Really man! And i think M4-06 will forever remain legendary! Shuming agrees! I think. And shuming, u must behave lar... always go visitors lounge.. aiyo.. at least dun kena caught can? And dun say what i taught u abt the magnetic door and masking tape! All e best for ur EZLINK too.

To Julie- u can do it! U will survive! All e best to u and Jaren too, not for Zhiyuan! Haha! for HC!

Den ate dinner alone and came home alone and marked all the paragraphs from 06. Oh, productive sia!

Slept

Tuesday

Only one lesson and i remembered to bring the sweets. YAY. Apparently it wasn't too nice cuz it was too sweet... the Fe-y... dun get it right? Then had nothing else to do so i finished off my gemming with eugene. I won thanks to IMBA wraith slate. Oh Denise came back today!

She had shocking stories to tell of Monfort and the staffroom was alive again wh=ith her being around. And i might consider working where she does. Can you believe it, up to 40 a day in tips?? Yeah, but then Monfort stories were cool, and the info abt 3 years a level restrictions on scholarships.. appaling!!!

Then did e book for Kathleen and Shums, haven done one of those in ages. And then went to 222. Taught a few ppl how to do Rubiks today. They include Sam, Yumei, Zhiyuan, Jaren. And Eugene has a 3x3, 4x4 and 5x5 Rubiks!!!!! I WANT ONE!!! 3X3 is the classic, 4x4 is called Rubik's Revenge, 5x5 is called Rubik's Professor!So cool! 4x4 one makes the 3x3 one look like a noob's toy! So fun! I think Zhiyuan has mastered the first phase of 2x2 solving for the Revenge cube! Yup, had tuition today, bus came late but i think it was my fault. Then i decided to blog. Then i decided to sleep

Shout outs
Carian, Shi Yun, Valarie - heard u guys got Gold! CONGRATS!!
Sek, Song Hon - get well and heal soon
Yumei - Jia You!! Dun give up!
Julie, Jaren and e rest - all e best for HC
Lousia, Aruna, Verena, Christina and anyone else - All e best for LEO!
Zsa, Shuming, Jane - nice talks!

Labels: All of the Above, Jaren, Julie, Rubik's, Sek, Shuming, Yumei, Zhiyuan, Zsa^2

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(Sunday, May 6, 2007-)
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# Point of Difference

Its the weekends again! YAY!!

Saturday

Was awesome!! Haha, apart from spending lots of time hand-washing clothes, tuition was alright. Although i still dread the journey there n back. Started off fine with me dropping by TJ to get my stuff which i left in the SC room. Oh, why would it be there? Cuz... i left it there... haha.. ok ok, cuz i left it there while i went to watch Chinese Drama's show. The easiest name to put for the show owuld be Temasek Nite 07.

Friday

Points that you already know
-Kenneth doesn't know Chinese
-Neither is he able to read Chinese
-He wasn't stupid enough to sit through it alone

So i got myself a few translators! Haha. Big thanks to Zhiyuann and Yingen who translated for me. Let me try and retell the stories (there were 3 ok!) and tag me if i got it all wrong k?

Story ONE
-aiks... darn.. can't remember liao..
-*ponders while enjoying ALL OF THE ABOVE*
-oh oh, it was about how life isn't always perfect
-there was this father who adopted a blind girl
-then he was going to die, so he donated his eyes to his daughter
-and according to zhiyuan, the scene where the musical box gets spoilt is significant in the sense that it foretells that she is going to lose something (or someone) precious to her
-and parallel to that, there is a fairy tale going on where the prince and princess lives happily ever after after (lol, after after =) defeating the witch
-btw, to the witch, ur shadows were so cool!! tag me if u r reading this k? I dunno ur name but i guess you know the ppl i was watching ur show with

Story TWO
-it was about being urself
-there was this girl who always thought of herself as inferior to others, especially to her sister
-because of that, she thought that ppl were always making fun of her and excluding her when they actually weren't
-in the end, when she stands up for someone else (because of something she herself holds dear), she realises that she needs to stand up for herself
-then she realises that she will only be happy when she is herself
-according to zhiyuan again, the act of her putting on her glasses at the end is to emphasize the point

Story THREE
-starring JULIE LOW!!!!
-i dunno what her character's name is so i shall call her Julie (=
-its a whole story about the good and bad of changing times, centralised around the Singapore Government
-started of with the collapse of the First World Hotel and ended with the upgraded Kopitiam where the Julie pays for the expensive meal
-according to Julie, her transition scene to her "older self" was purposely interrupted by the stage crew and lighting change to ignify how time flies

Ta daa~~

And there you have my version of what went down at Temasek Nite 07

So moving back to...

Saturday

After getting my stuff, peeked into LT2 where EXCO elections were going on but had no time to stick around cuz tuition called. But once tuition was over, i headed back and stepped into the LT.
The EXCO was already decided by then. Shall not ruin the surprise for u, but somewhere on my blog is the list of the new EXCO. Go hunt k? Then after forever, we decided to go to Parkway for lunch.

Ate KFC, sharing a buddy meal with Cheryl who tried Meltz. I think Meltz is nice, but not filling... Interesting things that went on was talking about how Hui Min was gonna suffer! And her scandal where she herself failed the task. Dun think u guys will know what im talking abt, but then again, u shouldn't! Saw a PW group there also!

Aruna, Abishek, Pui Yee, Cheryl and Ryan's group. I think. They were supposed to be at Macs but apparently it was too crowded so KFC had good luck.

Left for home on 48 and then did my laundry and rushed to YA pre-service prayer. Aiken shared an awesome msg (see.. he said so already in the mails ryte?! haha) on being the LIGHT! And then we moved into the service which was very very good! We started off with this awesome song... Point of Difference!

Shall focus on the chorus, and how it is really meaningful (oh, btw, i bought hte album already! Haha! Can't edit my sidebar though, but point is, UNITED rocks, and their songs are really meaningful!!)

Point of Difference

Chorus
Open the skies, flood the earth with Your light
Like what Maddy and Aiken said, this is really meaningful. Apart from the obvious fact that we are called to be lights, there's this interesting thing about lights. In a room as big as u can imagine, ok, for convenience, think of a classroom. If its totally dark, there's like so much darkness in the room. But even if a small tiny candle is lit, the darkness which is so much more than the small little candle cannot overpower it. The light shines through. And secondly, everyone in the dark will naturally focus on this light. This is our calling. YA and Emmanuel. To be that light. And not just any small light, a light that will flood the earth! Blowing Spirit, Jumping Locusts!

This is love to break a world indifferent
This is the MOST meaningful part of the chorus for me. Why do we need to shine? Because we live in an indifferent world. Just like what Isaac super-crazy-awesomely-amazing Church Camp promo-video said, we love in a world where lies are passed off as truths. Where people care only abou themselves. Where one can be a crowd and yet lonely, be online yet disconnected. This world is so cold and indifferent. And we are called to love, love so much that it breaks the indifference. Love so much that we stand out. Love so sincerely that we shine. Love so dearly that people see the Love of God in us. Love that breaks indifference. How important that is, words here can't express, but it really struck me. To live my life, that my love will break this indifferent world

As we lift up our eyes, fill our hearts with Your fire
It certainly isn't easy to love till it break indifference. It won't be normal to stick by friends when work calls. It won't be easy to care when I need to be cared for myself. It's hard to show I care when I'm empty inside. But this is where God comes in to be that fuel for our fire to burn and shine for Him. On my own, i cannot love till it breaks indifference. I cannot love without being filled myself first. And as Rachael said before the service, today, God really wants to fill us with love. Love firstly for Him, and next for others. And im taking up that call. To love people, to genuinely care, to sincerely touch, to break this world indifferent.

In a world the same, we'll be the different. The Difference.
Even after all the "hype" of the weekend, the world is still the same. The only change that took place is in me. The world isn't suddenly going to be all lovey and caring. And trying to break the indifference may break my spirit within the first few hours of monday. But in my world, im going to be the different. The Difference!

Labels: 31st EXCO elections, Point of Difference, Temasek Night, Yingen, Zhiyuan

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(Friday, May 4, 2007-)
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# Surprise!!

Yup, surprise surprise! I have finally found time to blog.

Yay, jz to say that life's been rather low at times. Didn't get my EDB offer, but NUS and NTU accepted me. Missing my friends.. if i have any true ones to begin with. Wanna watch Spiderman 3, but no point watching it all alone... Oh, and James' blog got a Reuters' mention! Cool eh? Yup, i found that out before James i think. No idea why i was blog surfing. But back to the point, James, you put a realy good summary of 3! I love that Nazi shot! Hehe

Other interesting things that are happening... Beta won cheerleading (although there were too many traitors!) Gamma is once again overall champion (yawn.. we know we are the best.. thank you=) of Track and Field. But Titans is coming up, and this year should be n different, although they've banned teams from practising the log throw event.

In other news, the weather hasn't been to nice recently. Actually, it's been nice.... TO SLEEP IN!! Every morning its getting harder to wake myself up.. EEE... And the fact that i have to walk to sch in the rain doesn't really motivate me much either. So far, the latest i've woken up is 6.45. Once when i overslept, it was 7.19! Haha, reached school late.. duh.. but thank God it was wet weather assembly so nobdy knows. SMILES!

In class, the mass Media is making its rounds, with the coldness striking once again. Other people who are in one way or another different would be Carian (who's either les, straight or bi, i have no idea), Xuewen is trying to kill herself, many are wishing PW would jz disappear (although get destroyed and sent to hell and even hell would reject it cuz "it was forced there" and many other reasons so when it comes back to earth they would send it back to hell again)

Yes.. and the performances are coming up, and big surprise, im going for Chinese Drama's production. Big thank you to my translators! But that also means i'll be skipping Mambo Night (i think the HUGE banner has an even HUGEr (haha) typo!.. Mumbo.. hmm...)

But to Ying Lin, Amanda and Rishik, i did promote it to my classes ok, ask 21 and 06!

Yup, for sports, today, Basketball and Soccer are playing their matches! All the best ppl! Volleyball girls are out, so i'll be removing the ad soon. But they;ve given it all they have and it wasn't their fault when ur opponent injures ur team... But it must have been accidental.. i think.

So lets support them! Oh oh! BIG NEWS!! The TJ guys soccer team WON A MATCH!!! Against ACJC! 1-0!! First time in 3 years! Woo hoo!! There is hope yet! We also won Climb X, an inter-JC rock climbing competition, the First Aid team also won their team category competition and and other CCAs seem to be doing not too bad, but it could be nicer. But im not here to judge their performance. For College (yay) For Nation (??? which one again? SG, MY, CH, IN??)

Now for the weather forecast. Heated days are coming up with the HC nominations starting up. Also, stormy weather forecasted for this saturday in LT2 as the 31st SC vote for their new EXCO. Unpredictable weather as no clear head seen (presidential candidate). Cool days expected ahead with many performances coming up, after the student bands, it'll be PDPs at the Atrium. And concert galore forecasted as PDPs fight for ticket sales. Ok not fight, but yeah, try to sell their tix.

I'll most likely be going for Guitar, Choir and Chinese Drama.. oh and TJ Drama. Sorry to band, i dun think i can make it, YA comes first. Modern Dance, i dunno if i'll still be in SG by then. Chamber, no idea where or when, so maybe an update would be good?

So that's all for the news, next time, please tune in using Google Desktop RSS Feeds to my blog to get the latest info (its my latest craze!! Google Desktop OWNS Vista sidebar!) and do check out iGoogle as well =)

Ciaoz!

Labels: Beta, Carian, Chamber, Chinese Drama, Choir, dance, EDB, Gamma, Guitar, HC, James, NTU, NUS, SC Exco Elections, soccer, THE Mass media, TJ Drama, Track and Field, Xuewen

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