Two thoughts from today's reading.

Ok, this sounds like a pretty straightforward and simple question. We all know that if we live by the Spirit, we will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. So, why don't I choose to be led by the Spirit. Why don't I use this "way of escape" from the erratic compulsions of a law-dominated existence?

I guess this takes some rather deep thought and personal reflection.

I guess at times, and many at that, I forget the reality of God. As one strong version puts it, to live as though God doesn't exist. Or using a phrase Ps Craig coined, Practical Atheist. Or was it Christian Atheist. Anyway, the point is that, it's more convenient many times to just ignore the fact that I'm redeemed at a price, that I no longer belong to myself. I allow myself to not see the unseen. To ignore the eternal. To just do whatever I want. And obviously, this is not freedom. I then become a slave to my fancy. True freedom is being able to choose and have the ability to execute what I know is good for me. And every time, that is basically what God wants for me.

The other simple answer is that my sinful nature has not been crucified with Christ. It is obviously not dead, but very much alive. I know, I've heard the sermons on starving the sinful nature to death etc. But I guess I know that I have failed at that. I guess for me, at least with my current mindset, that method is not going to work. The only one in my head that's going to work is the pattern that I've received from my readings. A daily surrender. I'm probably never going to be able to be like those "super Christians" who are above temptation, beyond reproach, always loving, patient and kind. I'm still going to be just Kenneth. The one who fails, but God will pick me up. The one who cannot do it, so each morning has to ask of God. The one who is fearful on the inside (and outside), and so needs God's love everyday. The one who reflects a proud image of himself, but needs to be transformed, and continually being transformed into His likeness. Yup, for now, that "vision" of perfection is the one that gets crucified, and I take up my cross daily, where I surrender myself at the mercy of God to see me through.

I can't even bring myself to the next point. I need a break

Ok