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# Wish List
Im just a little jaded if that's the word. Feeling rather alone. God, i know u're here, right beside me. But i just wish i could talk to you. Not in the sense of prayer but rather 1 to 1. To hear your thoughts. To know what you feel about things. Guess that just means i wanna and need to grow deeper.
So here's a little wish list i thought of while doing laundry. Maybe some *FAIRYDUST* would help now eh?
Top Five Things Kenneth Stephen Wilson Wants at the moment
1. Mom to be here. Just wanna hug her and see how proud she must be of me. Just wanna give her back so much for all she's sacrificed for me. I dun even mind giving all my tuition money to you. Really. Love you so much. You prayed for me so much there must have been no way I could have failed my As. Also, the lazy part of me just wants someone to care for me. To be here for me. For me to wish goodnight too. For me to wake up and see in the morning. Miss you mom.
2. Someone to talk to. Cell mates, you guys are awesome people. My students, its nice getting tags and shouts. Too bad someone forgot my MSN. Haha. But, I'm really in want (or maybe need) of someone I can just talk to about my day. Blogging is cool, but it just doesn't cut it. I love talking to people. Talk about anything and everything. Everything, really... But its so hard to find a person who would want to talk so much. To hear an opinion, to see a smile, to write a memory.
3. Someone to play the guitar with while the person plays the piano. Yes, I still miss those times YQ. The person preferably should be able to sing also cuz I can't. But its just a preference cuz i'll sing to God, in key or not anyway. Yeah, someone who of course must love Hillsong, Planet Shakers, Christian City Church that kind of music. No secular stuff, those kind of music is so meaningless on the inside. I miss someone who i can just spend hours with singing and playing songs with. Thinking of new ways to play songs, medleys, transpose. Basically worship together. Also on a mini sidenote, any of the following albums would be great to hear as well. Jesus Is - Hillsong London, any Christian City Church album cuz i've never heard one, Never Stop - Planet Shakers, Arise - Planet Shakers, and the newest All Of The Above - Hillsong!!
4. Be in God's awesome presence and embrace. I miss the feeling of APYAC which I got a tingling of at YA. Just wanna literally let heaven touch my heart. To walk with a deep fire burning in me. Jumping down sidewalks praising God. To have a sense of the true almighty God of the universe in me. Basically to feel that contentment in life. A levels rocked, but it won't last forever. God, i know you will.
5. Someone to help me shift my stuff. Anyone... So many things to pack. No idea how to tell Aunty Lily that im finally moving out. Actually, its not even a lot of things to pack. I'll just get it done alone tomorrow afternoon. God please send someone or some people. I don't wanna do it alone. Ok, God i know you have everything planned out, and its not really an impossible thing to ask for cuz i stay like 15 mins from TJ to a place 10 mins from TJ. Just want someone to help me. And i'd prefer if i could talk to that person/people too. Haha. Ok, i just wanna talk.
Don't get me wrong, im not sad or depressed. Just some things i realised that im still not feeling fulfilled over. Before i sign off *sprinkles FAIRYDUST*
Teaching rocks. I am considering being a teacher. Txs 04,06,21Labels: christian music, MOM, talking, teaching career, wish list
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