Why is all I see in the Bible stories now that of failure in relationships, behaviour and principles? It's the very same people that I once saw as perfect forefathers of faith, but since CLAS1003, I've started to notice the humanity of them, how they didn't have a clear code of conduct like what Christians more or less have today. Perhaps that's why the Mosaic law had to come. People did what they saw as right in their own sight. And perhaps that's the understanding of the law that I've been searching for. That without it, life for the forefathers was really a moral mess. Lying, stealing, dishonesty, infidelity... Of course those are labels through modern lenses, but still, they do fall short of God's absolute standard.
And perhaps the plus point which is too cliche that I don't even want to admit it, is that God still used them. It wasn't because the were all so consecrated and holy and doing things all right, but merely because God was keeping His covenant with Abraham. Isaac, Jacob, their lives were in a mess, screwing around, passing on generations of wrong attitudes and behaviour, but God still came through. Of course this isn't the way God wants me to live, just clinging on to His faithfulness while I remain unfaithful. It will work, because even when I'm faithless, He will remain faithful. And probably the main point of all these is for times like this. When I'm the Isaac and Jacob.
God is still faithful, He will always be,
God will see me through, because of His mercy,
His kindness and grace,
I have a chance,
Hope to find my place.
Yup, the day is winding down, the pressure of procrastination and fear building up. And I guess even typing this is escapism in work. Well, it's not going to for much longer.
Let's try once again, to concoct an action plan.
1.30 - Wash clothes
1.35 - Eat lunch
2.00 - Dry clothes
2.10 - Sort out things to throw from my table
2.30 - Gather notes on table
2.45 - Get clothes from dryer and dry them
3.00 - Email Roland, resms Justin
3.30 - Study Aero - shut down computer
5.15 - Pay rent
5.30 - Break
6.30 - Cook and eat dinner
7.30 - Pack up clothes and vacuum room
8.30 - Sort out Sydney and homebound clothes
9.30 - Study Classics
10.30 - Study aero
Lets see, that's ambitious... but lets do it!