Wow, it's been 52 days into the Unshakeable year! Things have been shaken actually. And I think Ps Bruce Hills actually nailed the shaking for my life pretty well. The fear of man. The fear of what others may think or expect me to do. This is what has been crippling me, my cooking, my friendships, and even my outlook on exchange. I will re-read my post from Ps Bruce Hills again after I write what spoke to me from today's reading.
2 Corinthians 12
21 Yes, I am afraid that when I come again, God will humble me in your presence. And I will be grieved because many of you have not given up your old sins. You have not repented of your impurity, sexual immorality, and eagerness for lustful pleasure.
So the part that spoke to me was something I struggle with. I know there are those who read my blog, so I shall keep it private. And if you're reading, a "hi" or "how ya' goin'?" to you :)
I guess what would be sad would be for me to return to Singapore, and be the same Kenneth. Yes, convictions should remain the same, but anything that isn't growing is either stunted or dying. And as such, holding on to one of the truths that I had a revelation of, I will ensure that I grow stronger.
Success isn't a destination, it's a journey. And as such, success is found in the journey, not when I arrive. It's about the person I am while going through the trials and not who I am when I achieve my goals. Who will I be willing to either stoop to or rise up to in the journey to becoming more like Christ. Will I lower my standards when no one is looking? Will I hold on to my word as my bond, even when it hurts? Or will I play the "I'm new and nobody knows me" card? Or will I play mind games with myself that I have a long time more, and then stress myself out for running out of time.
It's all in the process. And that's where the success is found. Do not shortchange myself in the journey of becoming a real man. Though it's not easy, no apparent reward, I do this to earn a crown that will last forever :)