Anyway, before I get started, just had a long chat with Fangs. Pretty interesting stuff. I will be back this Friday. See ya then!

Now on to this. Two verses stood out today. From verse 26, it's the part where it says "You will be drawn back to this meal again and again until the Master returns and from verse 29, "If you give no thought about the broken body of the Master when you eat and drink, you're running the risk of serious consequences."

Firstly, the part about being drawn again and again to this meal. I think it just reminded me of how sinful I am and how I constantly need this meal. That I can be reminded in a non-condemning way of what Jesus did to save me from all my bad stuff. Yes, sin. This has to be the central of my belief, that apart from Christ dying for me, I have nothing. No love of God, no promises of God, no hope, nothing, if Christ hadn't died in my place. Yes, I'm a "criminal" deserving of death. I think criminal now has a new significance considering my cousin who's here to stay for 2 years cuz of sekatan/buang daerah. Crime isn't that far off.

Yes, just to remind myself over and over again, at this meal, that my life that deserved to die, a horrible gruesome neverending death, was spared at the highest price, and over and over again, I must never let the significance of this just go unsaid. I also believe that the lack of an awareness of this causes us to evangelize less. Not because we love less, but because we're too "proud" of who we've become as Christians, and forgetting if not for what Jesus did, just like them, we deserve death. Until the final judgment, I believe we still deserve death. Maybe even after that, but I'm no theologian to dare say.

And this links to the next verse that struck me, that if we give no thought to it, we're in danger of serious consequences. Taken firstly at the point of communion, that when I drink of it like another tradition. Yes, the thought of Christ death, the emblems, it all goes through as routine. But I give no thought to it. The thoughts just come and go, and I'm a passive partaker or participant in the Holy Communion. Sometimes, just cuz I've taken Holy Communion for what, more than 15 years now probably, it's way too easy to give no thought to it.

Taken at the next point, that when we give no thought of the broken body of Christ. Firstly at the point of ministry. The amazing lesson that Ps Tan Ye Peng thought us about being broken for each other. When ministry becomes selfish. Wanting the best manpower, priority, quality and what not. When we're no longer broken for one another, but instead serving our ministries selfishly instead of being broken just as Christ was broken for the church.

Secondly, at the point of daily lives. When I don't even give a thought for what Christ has done. And this manifests in so many ways. In how I don't realise that I'm a sinner and judge people. Criticisms, prejudices and judgments. This all stem from the fact that I don't give a thought for the broken body of Christ that was for all, that I'm nothing special on my own, that apart from Jesus, I'm just as bad as those I criticize, am prejudiced against or am judging. It also manifests when I forget the need to evangelise, when I forget that such an important battle is at stake, that I give no thought that Christ died to empower me to be where I am today. To be in the place of influence. That all His grace, promises and power is made available to me due to his substitutionary act of propitiation (yes that was chim on purpose), just so that I can be broken for others and tell them the Good News. This is just another way where I give no thought to the broken body of Christ.

Yup, end of lengthy thoughts. Time to pray and repent.

Nitez.