I once said everyone wants to be wanted, needs to be needed. I guess that saying came back to haunt me today. There's this overslack mood in the air, yet I'm busy.
I want to be a son. I guess I'm still in the processs of becoming one. But more than that, I'm still wondering where I belong.
Thinking about it (which i know i shouldn't be doing), i guess i've moved on from the "who are my friends" stage. I have many friends. Too many in fact, that there' isn't enough Kenneth to go around. Yup, now it's the stage where I have to give my life for a cause. I know it's selfish of me, but I'm still searching for somewhere... Somewhere I belong. This is probably one of the rarest things u'll ever see me blog, a secular song. Im not that emo, only some of the parts are what i really wanna say
Somewhere I Belong lyrics
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Repeat Chorus]
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
Well, sometimes, i'd rather not be me and think so much. But sometimes, that's just me. Yup, i guess i'll end this post a proper way. Here's Home by Hillsong
Into Your courts I run with praises
Flowing from my heart
Every day I wake I sing Your song
It's the anthem of my life
I want to spend my days
In Your presence, Lord
Bowed before Your throne
In the house of God
Is where I find my peace
It's where I find my
Home is heaven
One day Lord, I will live
In Your courts, You'll find me
In worship at Your feet
Hide me now
In the shadow of Your wings
Where I will be
Where I will be
Your love is all I need
So desperately I have sought Your face
I know You hear my every cry
And petition that I make
Jesus, oh You are my treasure
Jesus, oh You are my treasure
Nitez