Today was a rather interesting day. Realise now that i only had less than 6 hours of sleep. Should get more soon. Thank God tuition kid bailed on me i guess?
Coming back to the day. Was doing powerpoint and had a really nice donate ur old desktop one done when Aunty Susan told me no need to repeat the announcement so i went on to the other ones. Realised my style is slowly changing. The S+E+L+F+ctrl poster has slight links to the Tanjong Batu announcement now that i think of it.
Moving along from there, went off for lunch with SJ, Kelly and Lizzie. Did feel a little out of place and hope i didn't like... prevent anyone from saying anything or jz making he atmosphere weird. Well, actually im quite sure it was a little weird with me there... but still im thankful that i got a chance to hear the conversation.
I will admit that the conditions at which i was "thrust" into cell leadership weren't ideal on "my conditions" but hey, it's God's condition, and Im sure He knows what He's doing. And yeah, like what SJ said, that the day i chose to accept the task to take Chellie's cell for 2 months, God saw that decision i made and He now sees me as a cell leader... though i may "delude" myself that it's jz a "temp job" or some rubbish like that. Yup, i guess this was my second lesson in cell leadership? The first was really unexpected, in India where the Missions Team spent two whole sessions explaining the concept to the Nagas.. and there i was inthe background appearing to be video-ing the session but secretly learning as much as i could.
Learnt and got reminded of some very important things by what she drilled her kids with. Cell Mandate. Under ideal conditions, i wished i had my own cell from scratch and i wanted to actually have a cell distinctive sort of (realise there's a lot of words that can describe a cell group's mission/vision etc).. Planned to have everyone share their views and what's most important to the cell they ideally would wanna see. And from there create the cell distinctive and hence a unique identity (= I want my cell to be unique, peculiar and definitely all out!
Also begin to reconsider the "powerfulness" (what a bad choice of words) of a cell group. Gotta remind myself that in the process of getting to know them better, i musn't compromise on the power that's possible in the gathering of God's saints.
Then thought of the expanded vision. If i see myself taking this task as literally taking care of 3-4 "cell kids" i realise im only ever gonna stay that way. Then i thought of myself in Kelly or Lizzie's shoes. O levels and up to 30 kids. Scared. But then again... i gotta start envisioning my cell. How big i dream is how big it will be. Sure, faithful with small first... but doesn't mean i don't need to begin in a small way. Realise that being faithful with small things isn't about doing small things, it's about thinking big, excellent and ridiculous even when things are small. That's being faithful with the small that will get me to the big things.
What else did i learn? Well, perhaps how to be "drill-ish" and yet not condemnming? How to treat "second-liners" and many other pracical stuff!
Today music was good. Somehow i dunno why but i felt like smiling the whole time Alvin was sharing. But felt very restrained. But the worship part was ... different. Somehow it was so easy to engage God. And, Jesus, I called out to You. As a person, the first time that "reality" of shouting out Your name. Wow... It's You, and the reality of You. Something definitely broke through. Though i dunno why im a little down here in Sennett. Perhaps it was cuz the poster wasn't turning out "perfect".
Anyway, the main topic of the night really is dreams. My YA Cell Leadership dream. My NUS VCF Revival Dream. My Praise and Worship Dream. Can't let it be "blur blur" but gotta solidify and commit to them. Be directed in life!
Yup, no matter what the enemy tries to say or convince me, I know I called out for You today. You are more than just a name, a man or a god. You're Jesus (=