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# Reflections
No, it's not the TJChoir Reflections concert, but rather, a personal reflection. And just something i've noticed over the past few days as well as all my life, is that our personal reflections are often quite distorted.
We often think of ourselves quite far below who we really are. Apart from the fact that we are more than conquerors, the head and not the tail, wonderfully made and God's masterpiece (which we sadly, rarely live in that revelation), there something more simple than that.
We rarely see how precious we are (compounded by the fact that we 1. rarely hear it, and 2. rarely believe it). Well, at least for me, there have been a few people who have been quite precious to me. Who've inspired me a lot, though they never know it. And sadly, because i never tell them, the cycle continues. But im not here to whine about it or feel sad at what a failure i am in this area. Rather, just want you guys to know that you guys are special and important in one way or another or many other ways (=
My family, yup, rarely hear about them here, but they are the ones who i know will never fail me. Yup, i know even closest of friends can fail me. But my family has always been there for me! Even when I forget them
My Malaysian friends. Knowing you guys for almost all my life, it's sort of an unspoken (literally) bond that somehow hasn't broken even though i thought it had. Seeing the pictures on facebook, meeting up with u guys for mamak sessions, really nice! It's something that Singapore can never reproduce. Somehow Malaysia still rocks (=
My Malaysian church friends. You guys never know it but I've learnt a whole lot form you guys. Thanks for setting the foundations and being true friends. Thanks for inspiring me with your dedication although our group was so small. Yup, especially to the INTI CF, you guys are as much a part of the upcoming NUS revival as I am. Thanks for grounding me in the Word of God since my Sunday School days and through YA (not the YA here, the YA there)
My Singapore church friends. Well, i'll hope to just plainly tell you guys directly, that you guys are really and inspiration. Though we're not where we should be yet (like MEGA-POWER-REVIVAL every week, which we definitely can be) I can already see the right spirit in you guys. Keep it up. Yup, i'll try to tell you guys more that you guys matter a lot. The training too, the whacking, sharpening, polishing, it's all worth it.
My JC/university friends, you guys keep me going in uni in more ways than one. From the late night Mastering Physics SOS calls to the crappy lecture jokes. Hope i dun bore you guys to death with my lameness. And in more ways than one, u guys give me the reason to be in NUS, to be a good testimony, a bright light, a salty salt (=
And many others who inspire me, but that's not the main thing i wanted to blog before lunch.
It was more about our reflections of ourselves. I believe many of us have fallen to the trap of "pride". We never look at ourselves and say, yeah, i'm a good bassist, or yeah, im a good leader, or yup, i can really motivate people. We think if we look at ourselves and can praise ourselves, we are proud people. And we end up thinking we're still some lousy person who still needs to grow.
That's where i think some of the leader's frustrations come. Cuz they dun see us like we see our "pride" disorted reflection. We think we're never good enough, we think we are not loved, we think that we still have a long way to learn.
But what I believe the attitude should be is, we should make diamonds out of stone, rather than make ornaments out of diamonds. Meaning, each of us should see ourselves as people who already have the potential and rise up (not directed at anyone, really). We should have the motivation to step up, no matter what "level" we are at. Not wait till we are nice diamonds before we say I'm ready, but rather, we should allow ourselves the "humiliation" of stepping up while we're still raw, uncut stones. As we begin that painful journey, i think we will start to see our true reflection more clearly.
And lastly, i should be studying! Haha, yup, only 4 more days of chiong-ing to go before PC1432. God help me, cuz i know PC1431 was already a disaster yet you saved me. So once again,
"I throw my life, upon all that You are"
Oh, haha, before I go off.... WISHLIST!
-I Heart Revolution CD
-I Heart Revolution Wristband
-Shout To The Lord (1996), (2000), (Platinum Compilation 1 and 2)
-This Is Our God CD
-PlayStation Portable? Haha!
-can't really think of any more material possessions i really want at the moment.. lol...
-my friends to be saved
-revival in NUS
-breakthrough in YA praise
-15 minutes to last till the end of the year!
the story ends like this;
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